_____ I'm just writing this thing to try to explain how I feel about you. I keep writing cheesy expressions, but none of them can really show how much I'm missing you. I keep writing and erasing everything. I don't even know if words could explain my feelings for you. It's unexplainable. My hands are shaking at the moment and I wonder if you ever think of me. And if sometimes you think of me, are you smiling? Or even crying? Cause you know, I do both. On happy days, the thought of you make me smile. But on hard days, just looking at your picture is a real pain to my heart. I would lie if I told you I didn't miss you. I would lie if I told you I hated you. But do I love you? I don't know. All I know is that you will never see this. I'm just writing it for myself to figure out where I am and to find myself. I'm lost in my mind because of you. Why aren't you there? I just need you so bad. If I told you my feelings, would you even care? I'm so afraid. Do I mean something to you? Cause you truly mean a lot to me. You mean a big part of me; my mind and my heart. All I think about is you. Should I hope to see you once again? Can't you see I'm dying to tell you everything? When you're beside me, I listen to every breath you take, every word you say and every noise you make. Every second counts. And time kills me when you're not around. What hurts the most is sitting next to you and not knowing what you're thinking about. Sitting next to you and wanting to hug you so bad. I'm wanting to kiss you but so afraid of being rejected. It's killing me to see you looking at me right in the eyes, cause I never know why you're doing it for. It breaks me to feel how far you are. There are so many things that I'd like to say to you. You know, sometimes i wake up late at night and I just take a look at the stars and i hardly think about you. And I heard that there's always one person you meet that change your entire life, and you know what? I want this person to be you for me. So come and get me. Just take my hand and mean it, you'll make me happy.
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